Thursday, February 05, 2009


I feel wholly unmotivated to actually get off my ass and do the things I really want to do. I slump through and sometimes get something done here or there, but it's rare and mostly uninspired. The worst part of this is that I can't explain it to myself, or to anyone else. I don't know what's in the way of me moving forward with art, writing, and all of the other things that make up the humongous list of goals I write for myself some evenings and weekends.

I always assume it's videogames getting in the way, because I do spend a fair amount of time playing them, or even other gaming, but in the last two weeks I haven't played videogames very much at all and other gaming is pretty much limited to D&D which happens every other week. I do end up reading / planning for D&D with a lot of my spare time, but it's not that I'm forgoing doing other things to work on D&D stuff, it's more that I do D&D stuff because I'm not doing anything else.

Does anyone have any suggestions? Shock therapy, less caffiene, MORE caffiene, sex drugs and rock'n'roll? I'm going to think on it this evening and see if I can figure some part of it or maybe even try to get through it somehow.


rjschan said...

If you figure it out, let me know. I could use some of whatever it is.

Vanir said...

I don't know either, but I'm right there in the same boat. It's like I lack the energy to devote to this stuff and the desire to push myself to manic feats of greatness. (I think my 10 month old has a bit to do with this one. )

There's also a dash of "are people going to like this enough for me to expend the effort?" in there too.

Whatever the reasons, I can't shake the feeling that optimistic, upbeat college me would be looking funny at me right now. :)

I think I may join you in some introspection this evening (while I'm waiting in the WoW queue, of course. :) )

Bartoneus said...

Vanir: One of the first things I figured out for me to get ANYTHING done was to stop playing WoW. :P

Jared said...

can't write reply, need to get one more level...

baby steps, man. you haven't been drawing for a while. No grand plans,

just draw something, before you leave this page, stop and draw something. If you don't i'll put a chain mail curse on you. don't test me.

Jared said...

oh, and I took your advice. this would be attempt #4 to quit since i started. Who knows? Maybe this time it'll stick.

Jackson said...

Personally, I recommend reading How to Get Control of Your Time and Your Life by Alan Lakein. It's been great for helping me identify what I really want to do, making me aware of the things I do in order to procrastinate the important things, and helping me learn why I resort to these less important things to procrastinate. It feels weird to be offering this advice since you don't know me from the next guy, but the book really has helped me focus.

Plus: now, when I procrastinate, I procrastinate deliberately, and I feel a lot better about it!