Thursday, February 05, 2009


I feel wholly unmotivated to actually get off my ass and do the things I really want to do. I slump through and sometimes get something done here or there, but it's rare and mostly uninspired. The worst part of this is that I can't explain it to myself, or to anyone else. I don't know what's in the way of me moving forward with art, writing, and all of the other things that make up the humongous list of goals I write for myself some evenings and weekends.

I always assume it's videogames getting in the way, because I do spend a fair amount of time playing them, or even other gaming, but in the last two weeks I haven't played videogames very much at all and other gaming is pretty much limited to D&D which happens every other week. I do end up reading / planning for D&D with a lot of my spare time, but it's not that I'm forgoing doing other things to work on D&D stuff, it's more that I do D&D stuff because I'm not doing anything else.

Does anyone have any suggestions? Shock therapy, less caffiene, MORE caffiene, sex drugs and rock'n'roll? I'm going to think on it this evening and see if I can figure some part of it or maybe even try to get through it somehow.